The Hill I'm Gonna Die On

A kiss that

Consumes me.

Your lips are

Like juice to me.

Through my neck

You tread desire.

My insides

Already catching fire.

Your hands are bold,

While taking my breath.

I'm in your control,

This could be my death.

Caught red handed

On my cheek.

Wripping my clothes off,

And calling me a freak. 

Bite marks

All over my thighs.

Making me suffer

With the look in your eyes.

Your tongue is magic,

Making me cry.

I swear I could beg for this

Until the day I die.

A perfect balance,

Of owner and toy.

One likes to suffer.

You love to enjoy.

Cutting deep, in the night.

It's the last thing I see.

My blood in your thrust

Will be the death of me.

Zombie

I've been walking dead

For more than three years.

My physical needs?

Thought they disappeared.

Only craving brains,

That was all I've known.

But then, with my own eyes,

I saw how much I was wrong.

I confused desperation

With lack of sensation.

Thought that I was stationed,

When I was only dying of starvation.

Then, you let me take a bite

And your taste just blew my mind.

"Be careful, darling...

Don't be greedy, or you'll die."

"Take a step back

Or you'll choke.

On everything that I know."

You've awaken me, darling.

Now my body's yours to control.

Different Plans

Your life's in a shadow 

Never brought to light.

Common interests, lust, and my own

Are an easier fight.

My instinct warned me,

And this time I heard.

"Be careful, he's red,

And not what you deserve."

Women are resourceful,

We always find what we look for.

And with my eyes I saw

What I suspected, and more.

Betrayed for a second,

Glad I didn't fall.

Relieved right after,

And not hurt at all.

I'm not here to judge.

I'm the one single, and free.

Don't know your complications.

We're both our Plan B.

I know I'm your toy,

And that's okay.

Because I'm using you

The same way.

I'm yours, until I'm not.

Through my heart,

More than your wanting.

I guess you'll be here forever,

Unless your Plan A discovers

What you're hunting.

 

 

Feel you tomorrow

Eyes starring at the void.

Closing softly, 

To another dimension.

Sometimes, I meet you there.

In the land where

Our touch is possible.

You are but the same person.

Leaving me warmer,

With kisses on the skin.

But keeping me safe,

With the grandness of your words. 

Before waking up

A voice tells me,

"Don't worry, my darling.

Dreams will come true".

The thought of you

Pulls me back to this planet,

As soon as I'm awake.

And I feel you so close.

The city's beautiful, 

Breathtaking, inspiring.

I walk at night,

Appreciating the

Calmness of it.

The wind rises with

Freezing suspicion.

Everyone's going home

But this one.

I wanna suck everything in,

And mix it with my blood,

So you can live through me,

Savour it all.

The moon's our saviour.

I look up. Are you looking up?

Are you seeing, now, what I am seeing?

I feel you. You are here.

Welcome, Master.

Edinburgh Cicles

I first knew you 

Eight years ago.

I thought my heart was

Already bubbling,

When I breathed your air.

The view took it all away.

Your old, mysterious streets,

That always seem so dark,

Even in the daylight, 

Made me finish a chapter,

While dreaming of another.

It was a cold, grey

Month of May.

Walking for two days,

While starving for more.

And you laughed at me,

Giving me nothing,

But inspiration and rain.

Seven years passed

Without forgetting you.

My loyalty was taken,

But my mind was with you.

I had to go back,

And so I did.

Secretly, eagerly,

With days to spare.

You welcomed me back

With surprise.

January days of sunshine.

It wasn't enough!

Being faithful was my anchor.

I didn't go alone, and

I wanted to have more of you.

Dragged down by lasyness

And no excitement,

A lot was left to be seen.

Then, I wished to have you

In every single season.

A promise of mine 

Is a certainty.

A lot can happen

In just one year,

And I am exactly at the

Same spot as I was

At first.

Free, as the butterflies

Going through my throat.

My loyalty lies in another language,

Dearest, but you're not 

Afraid to share it, I hope.

Here I am again,

Like in the first.

May it is, to start a new cicle.

Promisses remain unforgotten.

Next time, I'll come

With the right person.

Is there anything more freeing 

Than flying?

We always dream about

Taking our feet off the ground.

So, do we do it?

While travelling to another town?

No. 

We march there,

Taking our time, in an endless queue,

Walking and waiting,

To board a plane to somewhere new.

Even when flying,

We're nothing but

An occupied seat.

Pretending we have

Our wings spread open.

That isn't freedom to me.

The one that starts in your head.

Conquers your soul,

While you dream in your bed,

To finally take your heart,

Slowly, but steadily?

I rather have that instead.

 

Comings and Goings

It's cold outside,

And your house is so warm.

I'm shaking,

Like I'm bare naked.

I'm knocking at your door.

"Can I come?"

You open,

But you're going for a walk.

You hug me, making me hot.

After a while,

We're back at your steps.

But I don't wanna go back.

"Please, can I come inside?"

Smiling, you tell me

How greedy I am.

But we both know

How much you love

Me coming and going again.

You tease and play,

Opening the door.

"This house could be the cage

That you need to be free."

That's what your eyes are telling me.

I swallow hard,

And don't mind the provocation.

I open my mouth,

Continuing this conversation.

"I know I'm begging this,

For the third time tonight,

But can I come with you

Just one more time?"

Looking at your eyes,

Mirroring my own,

There's a world inside of them.

That nobody else owns.

You take my hand.

"Let's fly away.

Let's be free to explore us,

Yet, for a whole new day."

You are a match.

I am your fire.

A combination

Made from desire.

Not every man is like you

In a violent, selfish world

You mask yourself with roughness.

"I'm power. I'm the Kingdom.

I'm the ruler. Bend the knee."

The crown is yours

And you never take it.

As you should.

It's rightfully yours.

I'm here to please,

to obey and be grateful.

My place is right here,

And I'll never forget it.

"I'm your Lord. Kiss my feet,"

But I know you're so much more.

You're the first to raise your sword.

To fight for your beliefs.

My blood is only the ink

To the pen that it is your voice.

All these men, full of hatred,

And you so full of something else.

They can't corrupt you.

You're the justice.

One eye to punish,

One hand to catch me.

Behind your heaviness

There is a soft soul.

Yours, my King.

I am but a scribe.

My words are elegance,

But your thoughts are Saint.

Poets and writers

Wish to be you.

Because true art

Rhymes with your name.

Two days?

Can't be.

Seems like an eternity!

No way.

Maybe?

Snap back to reality.

What is liberty,

Besides being free?

Having the luck

Of being your property.

Interest. Desire.

That is not all.

Punishment. Fire.

To catch me, if I fall.

Wound me. Drain me.

Make me insane.

Take me. Heal me.

Live inside my brain.

Talk to me, even

In words I don't understand.

Não tenhas tento na língua.

Fais de moi ta putain.

Tú eres mi Dios, posesivo.

Meine Seele ist dein Blut.

Prego per essere tutta tua.

To be perfect. To be good.

Keep me around,

For as long as you want.

Let that be a long, long time.

I'll be yours,

And on my knees.

Let me build you a shrine.

Good Girl

Instant connection.

Who are you?

Where did you come from?

Who would have known?

I feel like I get you.

You are in me.

That's just my desires,

Already speaking freely.

You're not here to play,

Or is that all you can do?

Is this the first time

This happens for you too?

Now I'm wrapped up

In everything you say.

Just with the thought

Of becoming your game.

You'll have me on a leash,

But I sure love the teasing.

Despite that, I'll obey you,

Only to be pleasing.

Eager to touch,

To feel, to scream.

For you, I'm good.

For you, I'll kneel.

Mine

Intense and impulsive,

Ready to move.

Best to be rough,

Than to be smooth.

Out on a hunt,

Becoming the prey.

What can I say?

What a mistake...

Ready to jump,

Not ready to fall.

Hoping to find

Nothing at all.

Understanding the meaning

Of being mine.

Getting the distance

'Cause it's not the time.

Back to the game,

That's all I will need.

Enjoying the fun

Without planting the seed.

Worship

I only wanted to

Take back what is mine.

Free and seductive

In my own shrine.

Release those demons

Through gasps and moans,

Disconnected from feelings

To move along.

Wasn't expecting

To be this good.

Choking on your passion

Seems like a mood.

Locking eyes

Like I always understood

That the best I ever had

Wasn't the best I ever could.

Trying to behave,

But you're still touching me.

I think I'll need some space

To search for clarity.

The things that you say

Don't match your actions.

Is this my ruin?

Or just a reflection?

Handfull of lust,

Voice like a sin.

If caress is connection, so

What do you want from me?

Feeling like a goddess,

Not for you to pray.

But now it feels that's

All I want to take.